They stare at me while i.. crave you.

Wow, been a long long time since my last post! time flies, or it's just me? :D

i've been drowned in hecticness recently, and, to be honest, i am quite enjoying that kind of situation. if you know me well enough, you'll see that there are no way this talkative, hyperactive, fat-but-not-realizing-the-fact boy is going to settle down a bit for a midday chat, unless i'm very very 'empty'.

but hey, i'm back :D

thanks to one of my friend who tweeted abt her wanting to blog earlier, i finally connect my lame computer to my other lame modem and super lame internet provider. sitting here in my room, a boxered-boy sipping a cup of hot tea, writing these.

Now. what the heck with the title?

maybe some of you have heard a song called 'crave you' by flight facilities, and maybe some others havent. honestly, ive been listening this song a couple of times before, but i havent really really pay attention to the words in it.

until yesterday. and OH MY GOD i love it.

so here's the deal, please read the lyrics while thinking of you (if you're a girl) and of a girl you adore (in case you're a boy).

lyrics: (credit to www.metrolyrics.com)

Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I stare at you
Why can't I keep you safe as my own?
One moment I have you the next you are gone
Rehearsed steps on an empty stage
That boy's got my heart in a silver cage
Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I crave you

I walked into the room dripping in gold
Yeah dripping in gold
I walked into the room dripping in gold
Dripping in gold
A wave of heads did turn, or so I've been told
Or so I've been told
My heart broke when I saw you kept your gaze controlled
Oh I cannot solve

Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I stare at you
Why can't I keep you safe as my own?
One moment I have you the next you are gone
Rehearsed steps on an empty stage
That boy's got my heart in a silver cage
Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I crave you

It's true I crave you
Crave You
It's true I crave you

Let's just stop and think, before I lose face
Surely I can't fall, into a game of chase
Around his little finger, that boy has got me curled
I try to reach out, but he's in his own world
This boy's got my head tied in knots with all his games
I simply want him more because he looks the other way

Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I stare at you
Why can't I keep you safe as my own?
One moment I have you the next you are gone
Rehearsed steps on an empty stage
That boy's got my heart in a silver cage
Why can't you want me like the other boys do?
They stare at me while I crave you

I am craving you

sounds familiar? :D i can't stop my mind from wandering around.

you see, i had some experiences that involves 'girls' and 'crushes'. we all know where it's going to lead right? i mean me (and probably 90% of other boys) got our eyes struck on a girl, a fascinating girl who had a beautiful smile, or beautiful hair, or whatever. we adore her appearance. we got the sense of feelings that something is gonna come out from our tummy, and we're pretty sure it's not that crappy burgers that we ate for lunch.

so, what is it?

i avoid that 4-letters word. save it for the last. i prefer to describe it as "Cliche Repetition of Unnecessary Symptoms in Heart', which lead us back to.. crush.

yep, we all did, we all did.

and all i tried is being nice to the girl, asked her politely, sneaked across her just to see her face, texted her, bla bla bla. and what i got in the end? not far from 'sorry' and 'buhbye'. LMAO. but those experiences told me few things, some theories that i haven't proved yet... until i heard this song.

gilrs looove to be abandoned

gilrs looove to feel like she's unimportant

girls are dying for a boy that doesn't even know how to treat a girl right

and more importantly, pretty girls love boys that.. not into her at all.

is that true? it's all your decisions :D

but some advice for you IF you're a girl who think my idea was true, sometimes you gotta open your eyes a bit to see a boy that has always been there beside you, whom you know had fallen his heart for you. quit your adventure a bit, coz life is not all about looking for a new challenge. at least at this case. :)

and for you boys.. a sentence: dont.be.too.obvious!

they know it. they know you got your eyes on her, and crushing like hell on her. but being too good to a girl will onloy brings you to be her best friend, not her lover. if you want to be her lover, just be her friend. not the best one. ready?:D

love is also like a box of chocolate. you'll never know what you gonna get.

good luck fellas! enjoy your journey, i believe you'll get 'the one' one day! :D

and for you, yes you. they do stare at me, while i.. crave you :)